WINTER 2019

I was at the lowest part of my life that day.

I was ready to go to church, but something hold my back.

It was the coldest day of my life.

-4° of celcius.

I was really gloomy, and felt so sad.

You called and asked me with your worried eyes.

"What's wrong?🥺😟"

I cried so hard, wish i could hug you but i couldn't.

That was the first time you ever saw me cry.

You cheer me up, told me that i can stay in my apartment and skip the church mass for once in a lifetime.

Im so glad that you're exist in my life.

I was all alone in my apartment.

Everyone had their good company but me.

My roommate left me, and she was a nut.

I got no one to talk in the winter day, but you were always there and be my virtual company.

I love it the way you were always there

You're not a morning person, but you set your alarm to wake up in the morning,  just to accompany me walking for class, because you didn't want to see me walking alone.

Whenever i did the laundry, cooking, and even homework.

You were always there, because you know i hate being alone.

You were everywhere i go.

You were there with me on my way to church

It was a 2 hours of trip

But you never got tired.

I never regret having you in my life.

You taught me how to love

You made me feel how it's like to be loved by someone

You supported me, and you were always be my sunshine 🌞

Every depressed time i was always push you away, but you never give up and always try.

You told me not to be sad and worried because you always gonna be there for me.

But hey,

do you know what i hate the most now?

Now, at the lowest part of your life

You push me away, and give me no chance to help you fix it.

I can't support you, 

i can't be your reason to smile, 

i can't even lend you a shoulder when you're on your hard time

What if you cry and need a shoulder to carry on?

Why didn't you give me a chance?

I could just go and start my new life without you

But why did you do this to me?

Now i'm starting my brand new life without you

I know you don't wanna be with me anymore and you really done with me

You said it was a best decision

And you said that you finally found you again.

You're happier without me, that's wonderful

Guess love isn't always having each other, right?

Im Happy if you're happy

I know you're not gonna see this but i wish all the best for us. 

Sayonara, till we meet again.

Isn't it weird to eat exactly the same food for five or more times in a row? 

Well, indeed it is weird if you don't have your kind of cup of tea of food.

In the book The Omnivorous Mind (Harvard Univ. Press, 2012) and in other writings, the author has argued that we humans each have a "theory of food" that guides how, how much, and what we eat. This theory of food is analogous to "theory of mind," the suite of implicit cognitive skills that people use to negotiate the complex, interactive human social universe. (Read more here)

I do have it. that's why i ask you that kind of rhetoric question in today's post's intro. 

It actually begun a couple months ago, when i was still on my third semester of uni life. At the moment one of my friend offered me a fruit salad, which is now becoming one of my favorite food all the time. 

I tasted it. Okay, that was kinda weird at the first because it never comes in my mind to mix fruits with Yogurt, mayonnaise and Cheese. My brain still rejected it. But after i put this colorful thing into my mind, it all changed!

I like this kind of thing. At the time i was only like ordered it once a week from my friend, but it all get worst when i stop. The end of semester meant the end of hanging out together with my uni friends, and that also means that my friend was no longer selling her fruit salad.

i desperately missed it, like really missed it. I somehow ordered this kind of fruit salad online, but it did not taste good. The salad i ordered was not as creamy, yummy and delicious as i expected. Plus, its a pricey one! That wasn't worth it tho.

Then, one sunny day; due to the demand that i desperately planted in my hunger mind, i decided to make my own fruit salad. I bought such all the ingredients and started my experiment.

GUESS what. It worked. I was so happy. I bought the ingredients in a huge amount because i was thinking to take revenge to my self; i am going to eat all of this shit as much as i can every day. Yes and i finally did that. I eat fruit salad every day. for Lunch, dinner, repeat. I never skipped even once.

And you must know what happen next.
Have you heard this question before:


Finally, I finished to eat all of the fruit salads that i made. But since then, I can’t look at Fruit Salad the same way I used to. Not to deny that I still remember extremely well how much I liked them.

 The moral of this experience is, too much isn't good. You might like something like crazy, but also remember that being addicted is not that good. It might seems fun at the beginning until it makes you sacrifice. This is my story for the beginning of the year. If you have some kind of experience like that, feel free to share it here. Have a great day!